It’s on days like these
I can’t think of myself being worthy of love
I can’t even imagine myself being worthy of staying alive
Anymore
My body aches
From the everyday battles
For the right to stay alive
The feeling I get,
that everything I’ve been fighting so hard for these past years,
is falling apart is drowning me
Pushing and pushing
It’s making me sick to my core
It’s on days like these
When I feel like I can’t take it anymore
I can’t take yet another day
feeling like this
When the darkness is eating me up
Swallowing me
When all I want is to go back to the old bad habits that almost killed me,
not once, but three times…
I feel like I don’t have the strength to stand up on my own two feet’s anymore
I’ve reached my lowest point
again
And nothing really matters anymore
And I’m so tired of fighting this
I am fucking tired of always having to be strong
Always having to stand tall
Be the smart one
Be the fast one
The good one
The empathetic one
The one who alway put everyone else first
And myself last.
I’m just so tired
And I don’t know how to get up again
this time I really don’t know
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